E V O L U T I O N

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2005-07-08T11:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm... recently damn busy with working, team, RC, school work... exams are coming next week... And i only studied 10% of everything... Die manz.. My drving improved tremedously... Very pleased with it... Anyway com internet down... Wonder how am i going to do PW work... Haiz.. Tommorow will be the day that we will play against zicong's team... Wonder what will be the outcome...

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2005-06-22T23:27:00.000+08:00

Wah.... very long never blog....So many things happen... Hmm... where should i start? Oh ya... Recently my team performed quite well in the competition... Quite well already la though we are out... We nearly won Siglap lion who is a very strong team... And we actually won Geylang Serai Csc who is the host by a huge margin.. In fact a thrash.. Hahahz... The sad thing is i don't think i have contributed... Hmm... Anyway last 2 days at the chalet playing... Have quite alot of fun though i didn't stay... haha... won some money suprisingly too... ahaha... The best thing this week is that, my company has been interviewed and our men pictured while performing some maintenance by Simply Her magazine... Went down for the interview session with Simply Her magazine this afternoon.. Was overjoyed man... Free advertising... A boost to my company.. HAHAHAHAHz... Wad esle i can say? Hahahahz...

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2005-06-14T00:40:00.000+08:00

Hmm... today match against Braddell CSC... WE LOST BADLY... It's ok... Shall not dampen the team spirit and morale further... Wait for the competition over den i shall announce something... Hmm... Anyway got one F up person duno who come and made some negative comments without acknowledging himself or herself... I acept all negative feedbacks... But pls state ur reasons and who u are... If not i will turn nasty... And looks like my class-mates blogs also got the same problem except for Cresencia.. Haha... Tommorow got work at 10-3pm... Damn tired today... Slept till 1+... Zicong woke me up about some company stuffs.. Den feel like sleeping again but have to reply countless sms that i received when i was sleeping... After that told myself i am not a pig... Should not sleep any further though i am tired... Wake up do some admin stuffs den watch movie with my bro and sis... Hmmm.... Something bad happen... Wednesday suddenly need to go back and paint the whole bookshop... So last min!!! How am i going to mobilise my entire department down on wed? Shall ask them tml... Hopefully they will turn up...

Damn bored....

2005-06-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

I am so bored... Holidays already... But life getting bored... Most of my friends got school... If not go overseas... Den i mostly busy only at night... So very bored at home... What i do besides sleeping, eating and back to sleeping? Practically nothing... Getting extremely lazy... I put lots of schedule next week... Hopefully i can work more... Working is better den staying at home and slacking... Oh ya... I tell myself to catch up with the class in work... But i always so lazy to start reading econs and my management... Lazy to practise maths oso... Accounts no need to say... Hopeless one... I can feel i am lagging behind everyone... Shall start when i got the mood but when will that be manz? Haiya... My GPP going to be done soon... Everyone has put in effort... I am very pleased with my members... Realised they are efficient... Haha... This will be good if it continue in the long run...

PW sucks manz...

2005-06-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

The holiday made me sian halfway man... First week of holidays out of 5 days go back 4 days... Remaining days of the week, work... Sick oso work... Haiyo... Especially the stupid project work... Made me and the group irritated... Imagine having 3 or 4 meetings and each meeting takes up more den 2 hours and the worst thing is it is fruitless.. Was so irritated and stressed up... Don't know why we all have so much difficulty even though we are hardworking... But one thing for sure... I am blessed with wonderful group members... Willing to compromise and work together... Never complain for having too many meetings.. Hmm.. Duno what to say.. Just hope that this will continue till the entire PW ends... Fortunately today, we have decided to forgo the existing PIs and to work on the new one... At least we got a idea to start.. Hahaz... This week will be quite a busy week for me except today... Peharps not.. I will be doing research later... Tommorow got company chalet at sentosa... Damn sian... Can't stay... Got to be back in school on wed for E-club meeting... Wednesday, mum is coming back... Great man! I dun have to take care of household matters... Hahaz... Den got driving too.. Thursday got training. And the rest of the week work and work... Hopefully next week can have the time to work the whole week to earn more money...

What happen to me?!?!

2005-05-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Hmph... Dunno wad's wrong with me sia... Haiz... Came back from training den do some reflections and realised i am not very effective in everything... I stop studying for a very very long time.. I dun do my homework... I anyhow do my tests... And i love to work! I think i am mad... And the training just now is good but i perform badly.. Dunno why... This has happened for the last 1 whole month or maybe more den that... Have been trying to squeeze in some time into my tight schedule but i dun see any results... Lazy to go gym oso since right now is sch holidays... Haiz... Order new batch of jerseys for everyone... Got my new no. 13... From 4 to 10 and now 13... So weird... But i personally feel 13 is a fierce number.. Hopefully it will bring me luck... Hahaz.. Anyway back to the cause of my moodiness... The stupid Project work is killing me... For a long time, i have not tried to think so hard... Not even for exams... But apparently, no matter how hard i try thinking... I can't figure out any ideas... Not my group too.. We stared at one another for nearly 2hrs without an idea... Haiz... Hopefully tml a miracle will happen... =)

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2005-05-27T08:14:00.000+08:00

Hmm... i thought yesterday night would be a better day for me but it turn out to be worst... To add on to my agony, i actually play like shit? during training... Can't pass properly... Can't run much due to my stupid weak leg... Can't shoot as well... Confidence and morale went straight down after a few mins on the court... After training... Coach made me do push-ups for my poor performance... Den we have a meeting for the upcoming competition... Lots of people have financial problems so i decided not to get a new set of jerseys... For the new comers, i will have to get a new one for them... Training will be held more intensively next week onwards for the upcoming competition... Den have to submit proposal to the RC to give reasons why we didn't participate in the youth cup... Have to call that guy to ask for authorisation of the court usage... Realised i got so much things to do & this team is such a difficult team to lead and manage.. Haiz... Tonight still got work... By right i should be in Toa Payoh Stadium with my class-mates but i am blogging at home... Just came back from the airport... Mum is leaving for Nepal... Peharps on the 8th or earlier she will be back... Have to look after the house and the family now since my dad is a busy man... Hmm... My greatest concern currently is still AHS... Haiz... Wondering when my morale and confidence will be back...

Bored...

2005-05-26T18:50:00.000+08:00

Hmm... recently damn bored.... pasta mania didn't give me any work to do... so i can only rely on marina south to kill my boredom... Haiz... Something happened too... Morale very low.... Hopefully everything will be fine soon... Haiz... 2 days ago was an significant day... But it seems that that day should be forgotten since i am the only one who remembered it and pretend that everything has ceased... Realised i am very insignificant and peharps never did exist... Haiz... Found my very old cd that i burnt 4 years ago... ''Ghost of you and me'' this song has been replayed by me over and over again... Really brought back alot of memories.. Hmm... anyway mrs wan called today and chat with my mum regarding my poor attendace and constantly coming late for sch... It wasn't me... haha... Its was just coincidence that i can't wake up... HMM... she seems furious... My chinese teacher too... Can't be bothered... Tpday got GP paper... So boring... Imagine sitting there with ur head spinning for 3 hours without any short break? Tml is sports day too but i am not going... School activities never seems fun to me... I wonder why? Why can't i be like the rest and go JC? Haiz... 1 and half years more... Its killing me... I know since the school can't adapt to me i have to adapt to the school after all i am insignificant... Haiz.... My accounts really sucks to the core followed by maths... Really lost... Econs is starting to irritate me... The teacher went on rattling without stoping to see whether anyone could absorb.... I wonder how am i going to sit for my mid-yr exam with no help and no motivation... Haiz... Project work is bothering me too as i got no ideas let alone starting it... AHS also... What can i do to make it a success? It's my first time... I can't let it fail and collapse... Can't help feeling irritated.... Haiz... Why must all these happened? Okie... I shall stop nagging and moaning...

Sick...

2005-05-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today is a bad day... Wake up got a severe headache till i can't even stand up to walk... No choice... Can't go to school... I didn't know that sleeping so much can cause headache too... I slept from yesterday 5+pm to this morning 7am... Total 14hours+ of sleep... Hmm... Wad can i say? Sleep too little feel weak.. Sleep too much also got problem... Haiz.. So i decided to continue sleeping since i feel weak... Slept till 11am like this... My friend called me and woke me up... Hmm.. Realised i got an appointment at 2pm also... Can't sleep anymore... Woke up and prepare... Rush to Singpost at 2pm... After the appointment, went out with my friends to Old Airport Rd to eat... Eat so much until can't walk... After that went to TM to do something before going home change and bathe... Den rush for driving.... Reach there just nice at 8.30pm... I though i will be late... Lucky me... Book my practical test date... Its on 12 october... Den i drove to UBI and confirm the registration before driving around at Tanah Merah that area... Haha... Today quite lucky... Stall car twice only... But i did something wrong again... I SPEED PAST A TRAFFIC LIGHT... hAiz... Den kana scolding and nagging... Lucky there is no on crossing the road or any cars... Heng ah... Hmm realised in October alone... I have two major exams... One is my promotional exams which fall in the period of time when i am having my practical test... It seems that my practical test is the one i am very afraid of now...

tired + stress..

2005-05-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

Labour day damn tired... Work non-stop for long hours... Den chiong my project work... Den now need to manage AHS with Zicong alone after all Eddie in the middle of dunno wad seas while Victor got some problems.. Haiz... Hmm.. Hahaz... A few days ago at Raffles Place we were discussing our big aspirations... I am happy to share the common goal as my partners... Feeling damn motivated... Den yesterday received the grouping for A' level project work... Was very shocked... But at least not that bad ba... Got a mixture of hardworking perople, smart people and well-disciplined people... Haha... The problematic guy in the group should be me ba... Just like wad someone say about me ''acting dumb''... Interesting... Hahaz... first time i heard such comments about myself... Hahahaz... OKok.... Here comes the damn sad part... Former President of KK Group (Now known as Inoe Group) Victor Lim was admitted to the Changi General Hospital this morning at 8am for a operation to remove a tumour at his throat.. Only at around 5pm, the operation finally finish and it was a success.. Phew.. However he is still in coma... Haiz... There will be 2 major sessions or more for people to visit him.. One tml at 11am... Another at sunday anytime... Anyone wana visit him or know about him please call me and arrange a time to visit him... Let's all visit him, if not pray for him... If not at least think of him... Hopefully he will be fine... One of the greatest leaders of Inoe Group, AHS, a valuable employee of Pasta Mania and a key player in Team Inflame... Hopefully he will recover soon... We can't afford him to be in hospital for long... Haiz....

Stressed manz...

2005-04-26T20:42:00.000+08:00

Today lots of things happen... Haiz.... Good and bad.... Good is that our company has started operation in full scale... Bad is that a major quarell took place between me and a partner and this resulted in his departure... Dunno what to say... Peharps... We can't work together... Haiz... Anyway sch is boring today... I left in the afternoon... Took early leave for the first time... Hahaz... First time i use legal means to run from sch... But i ran for a reason... I wasn't really feeling well... Dunno what's wrong with my stomach... Later met eddie, gk and zc to collect my stuffs and ate lunch before cutting hair and went home... Now i am damn bored... Where is everyone?!?! Haiz.... Just remembered... I should see what i can do about my long over-due homework....

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2005-04-24T22:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm... realised i nowdays very seldom blog... And my blog is so dead.... Tag board spoil liao yet i can't do anything... Haiz... Anyway as usual... Have been very busy these few days.... Friday took my Final theory test... Soo tired till i can't concentrate in the test... Den at after that went to work at marina... Saturday supposed to work at marina too but my friend from thailand just canme back and she is going off on sunday which i am working too.. So no choice... We have to accompany her during saturday... Cannot be so bad after all she seldom come back... Have been feeling bad about yesterday since we can't accompany her for long... Anyway today work at pasta was tiring... The crowd never cease... Keep on coming... Lucky me... I worked till 3pm only... Went home to sleep before going out at night... Haiz... Management got a problem... Dunno how to do question 5... But no one can help me! Coz i think they dunno oso.. Haha... Die la... I got no more excuse leh.. Account test tommorow i dunno wads going on as usual... Hmm.. This is very bad.... Feel like sleeping again... Tml got work after sch immediately... That's bad..

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2005-04-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

Very very long never blog... Nowdays busy like shit... Exams sucks and the results sucks too... Got my first F in M.I.... And that is accounts... HaIZ.. Must buck up liao... Just came back from a boring performance at the esplanade... Classical music... How boring can it be? Haha... Yesterday Inoe Group got a bbq... Seen some people whom i have not seen for a thousand year... A wonderful gathering though we faced some problems... Stayed till 3+am before making a move and i slept from 5am till nearly 4pm the next day... Got a headache when i woke up...

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2005-04-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

Last Week..
Hahaz... Long time never blogged... Can't really remembered what happen last week... But i remembered instead of studying for exams, i did alot of things... Friday went out to study with kenneth who has his last econs paper on saturday.. So we studied econs... But the problem is i dunno what i dunno... Den on saturday, i went out before joining my friends to play ball at night... After 8 days i play ball again.. Haha... The feeling is good... Den the next day... Went to sentosa with my pasta mania colleagues... Haiya... Forgot bring extra pants if not can play in the water... The outing was fun but tiring... Den at night i realised i got accounting exam the next day... Haiz...
Common Test Week..
(Accounts)
Hahaz... Well well... Accounting paper... its was a breeze through for me... In the sense i finish it fast as i dunno how to do quite a few questions... So got nothing to say... Den go back home... sLEEP all the way till 9pm? I like going into coma... Could actually slept from 3pm to 9pm? Hahaz... I though i would not be able to sleep at night but i slept at 11.30pm after eating dinner, watching tv and reading maths formula... The next day is maths and management.. And i have not revise management for a long time.. So intend to study it during the break the next day...
(Maths and Management)
Management is bad... It is so difficult that i got no confidence in getting a E... Haiz... Source base is difficult... Strucutured oso... Den when come to maths... Luckily i only dunno how to do AP and Gp 2 questtins which cost me 8 marks... okie... Here come the tragedy... After exam, went to find my friends in the Pasir Ris CC to play ball... Dunno why longing for the feeling... Den when go until there... They say they are tired and want to go for lunch... But i refused... Den kelvin ask me for a 1 on 1 match... I agreee... Den haven finish playing, i was seriously injured... My knee cap was swollen... Can't walk at all... Haiz... To think my exams is coming to a end and i just have to be injured...

(Economics)
Economics is also terrible! DIE la.. I didn't study much on oligopoly... And it came up... Die lo... Very common... Haiz... And people could claim that i am the '''top student''' of M.I when they dun even know a disaster has struck on me... But nobody will believed me if i tell them i won't do well.. So got nothing to say liao... After exam, take cab to meet mum and aunt at bugis for lunch sis i am a diasbled now.. Den go back home... Bathe and change den went out again with parents...

(GP & Chinese)
Today which is thursday is the last day of my common test which i got 0% confidence in... Haiz... But i dunno why still so happy... Hahaz... Took my chinese paper first and finish it in less den 45mins? Amazing right? For people who know me... My chinese is like... So is my english anyway... The only thing i could do for chinese is finish it asap so i can go toilet... Hahaz... Den we have a break from 9.30am to 12.30pm where our GP paper will start.. 3hrs of break? How? Classmates going to heartland mall for breakfast but mingxiu and i too lazy to go... Then went to the council room and make ourselves at home... Hahaz.. Shujian and ignatius is enjoying the music which me and mingxiu is enjoying too.. Hahaz.. Den a while later.. too bored manz!! Dun wana disturb the councillors from studying... So me, mingxiu and jonathan decided to go heartland mall for lunch too.. We took a cab down due to my injury and a lack of time... Went delifrace to eat... Den the girls abandoned us and went to take pictures.. After eating, we went up to look for them.. Suddenly, mingxiu miss the toilet in sch... So we decided to go back and prepare for the paper.. And we took a cab too this time with Nina included since she is going back too..

Gp is extremely difficult... OKie... I feel that nothing seems to be easy.. I am doomed.. Shall not elaborate... After exam, went to watch movie at PS with stacy, sizhu, xinyi, petrina, renfeng and shafa... Cresencia can't join us becoz she has to attend her grandfather's wake.. Den went to long john to eat first... Well the staffs from there is rude i have to say... The rest think so too.. Den rush up to watch already... The movie is funny(supposed to be scary) but some people shouted loudly... Hahaz.. sHall not tease anyone...Well.. i crapped alot with my class-mates today and was abit crazy peharps realising the fact that i must enjoy when i can after all the paper will soon be returned to us.. After the movie... We shopped.. Xinyi and sizhu has to return first.. So left us shopping... Saw cynthia at S&K when i was toking to Hwee Koon at Ebase which is connected to each other? So surprised... See both people from coralsec... I couldn't recognise them... But they could recognise me... Suprisingly... Hahaz... Well... My dad pick me up at 8 which is supposed to be 7... Have a good day though :)

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2005-03-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

Thursday
Thursday was a great day for me i think... Went McDonald ''study'' with my friends but end up talking nonsense... Sit there for a few hours... End up only read through my econs notes without understanding... Hahahz... Den me and kenneth went to meet Ann Kok at Pavillion but got too many people so we deicided to go to GK house to borrrow some shirts and a ball and start playing... Den after that went Malaysia for dinner with my family coz my parents have to do something there... A tiring day indeed...

Friday
Hmm... Slept all the way till 1+pm... Den wake up take shower and eat before i sleep again... Haha... Die manz... Keep going into a coma... Wake up at 3+.... Go eat lunch with mum, sis and brother at Bugis before going to work at marina south... Working is fun coz not very busy and with my colleagues crapping around but abit boring too... Reach home watch TV till 1 +... Nx morning need to get up early to work.. Sianz man...

Saturday...
Saturday got up at 10am... After a heavy breakfast i rush for work at Pasta Mania... Working for 8 hours.... How boring can that be?? Haiz... The worst thing is do waitering for 8 hours... Lucky still got a few colleagues to crap with... If not can die manz... Den at 8pm i chiong ah... Rush to toilet change... Throw all my dirty pasta clothes in my bag... Den my dad car waiting downstairs... Supposed to go attend a dinner with him but Manager wants me to work till 8pm instead of 5pm but i can't broke my promise to my dad... Die manz... Don't even have time to bathe... So disgusting... Rush and rush... When reach there already late liao... But the food is nice lo... Reach home damn late...

Sunday....
Today is probably the worst day manz... Woke up at 11.30 when my work at Pasta is starting at 12pm... Rush there with my dad fetching without having breakfast... Work is relaxing but boring.... Finish work at 5pm... Rush to sentosa coz my dad' site over there... We went to view the new condo... ''The Berth'' by the cove... Wow... Really by the Cove manz... Somemore surrounded by bungalow for sale... These bungalows all come with a parking lot for ur boat... How cool can that be? But the condo interior is really luxurious... Got lift that reach ur living room... No need what gate and door onez.. Haha... But the price is not very nice... Cheapest unit cost around $1.6M... Hahahhahaz... So i can continue dreaming unless i strike ToTo manz... Den go back home eat dinner... So full coz eaten a big pizza during work liao... Haiz... Then my sis and bro want to watch Lord Of The Rings.. Nice meh? I never see before... Lazy to see also... Go back to my room... Haiz... Nothing to do or should i say no mood to do anything... Do some self-reflections... Realised that i have not done anything for my coming common test... Supposed to revise management on Friday, Maths in the weekends... But what have i done??? Nothing... These few days keep listening to the same old song over and over again... ''My heart will go on'' by Celine Dion i think from the Greatest Of All Love album which belong to Ann kok... Hear already very TITANIC... Dunno why... Ur mood will sink deep into the Deep Ocean like how Leonardo sank in the movie... Haiz...

Wednesday

2005-03-16T19:08:00.000+08:00

Haiya... I am so dooomed... Morning go to school for accounts and econs lessons... But i got no mood to study today... Whatever teachers said goes in and out from my ear... I can't absorb neither do i have the concentration in anything... Wanted to go take PDL... But i decided to go home coz got no mood... Then when reach home at around 1pm... I decided to go into a coma till 6+... WTF? How can? All haven't study yet.... Econs behind people... Dun even know anything about the features of the market structures except for perfect com and monopoly... Accounts no need to say... It's gone unless miracles happen... Maths also... Maybe management can pass... The rest i really dunno what to say... Though could study when i wake up but i feel so reckless.. NO mood.... I seriously need some motivations and inspiration but where do i get it from????? Haiz.... Realised whatever i planned has all gone down tot he drain because of my reckless/lazy attitude... ONe thing for sure i am seriously IRRITTATED with life... Kenneth just called me to play basketball... Alot of people will be there... Have not touch ball for the last 6 days or so... If i knew that these few days i am so reckless, i would rather go work... I purposely took leave to study yet... Argh!!! Feeling terrible... Friday till sunday i have to work liao...

Tuesday

2005-03-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

Hahahz... Damn slack manz... Die ah... Morning doing quite well in school.... Den go apply PDL and final theory... But never wear specs so must come back tommorow... Haiz... Den Ann KoK SO kind... Follow me to UBi den treat me to eat at pasta mania.... Haha.... We exchanged phone... Den go back sleep till now... Do nth again... Have been behind time liao... Die manz...

Catch me if you can,
Try me if you dare,
I am so scared that
i wet my pants...
Come on...
I am waiting...
Righ here waiting..
For you.. And only you...

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2005-03-15T00:00:00.002+08:00

Today can say is a happy day or a damn unlucky day.... Morning went for management... Thought i can score since it is last year topic... But i wrote too much for all the first few questions... Leaving the last 3 questions which cost 12 marks to fly away literally... Haiz... Den got the stupid learning style workshop... Sat alone for the 2 hours+ there stoning and dreaming... After the workshop at 12, went for lunch with Mingxiu, Renfeng and Shafawati... MX drop the drinks... So embarassing at KFC... But we got a refill.. Lucky us... Den i went off halfway to embark my mission: That is to go to Lanvender to order T-Shirt for E-club... Spend an hour there confirming the print, the size of the logo and word and everything.... Managed to stike the deal sucessfully.. Haha... Den went to Paya Ubi to get my PDL and my final theory test date... When reach there i realise i forgot to bring my ATM card... This is very bad... Den i walk away from there, wanting to go home.... But instead of ending up in Pasir Ris i end up in Kallang... Haiz... Den from there i took a MRT go TM... Go back outlet to check and put my work schedules... Manager want me go sentosa on the 27th... Its company outing... But my common test start on the 28th... How? NO choice... HAve to go... Haiz... DEn go hello shop to get a new sim card for my sis.... Rushed home... Realised i spend 6 hours in the afternoon doing only 3 things... Haiz... Night time go meet INOE GROUP central committee... Went to Mr Sim's house for dinner... Got bake rice, chicken, sausage, fries, garlic bread, drinks and ice-creams... Den watch fear factor in his house... And tok crap for several hours... Tok about how many nonsense we did in the past that no one dare to commit.. Haha... Den went down to coffee-shop for a drink.... Kingston only drank abit and he is as red as a lobster... Eddie and Zicong refuse to drink... While Ann KoK SAY his leg pain can't drink... Haha... So only left me and GK to drink... We start discussing about our GROUP t-shirts but there is no conclusion about the meeting... Sad case... Have to rush home and study econs labour market... HAVEN STart yet... Die manz...

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2005-03-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hmm... the last 2 days damn slack.... Never do anything or peharps the last few months... Haha... Supposed to study for account test today since i got training but i went to play basketball instead.... Yesterday too... Supposed to finish my maths homework yet i didn't... Went to play basketball also... Ain't in a very gd mood these few weeks... And its getting worst day by day... I don't know why my tolerance level towards other people's jokes or outspoken attitude is damn low... Realised that i am very easily angry and irritated these few days... Haiz... I really don't know why i so moody... Its like back to the old old me last time when i just completed my O levels... Super moody... Die manz... Have been trying to change to be more cheerful... But nothing seems to work... Thought could destress by playing basketball... Instead i got more irritated and angry by minor matters especially today... This is damn bad... And its not that i want to demoralise the team.. But its a fact that ever since the accident, i didn't improve or recover.. How am i going to help the team with my current situation? My morale is damn low now... I am just afraid i might embarassed myself in the Youth Cup which is just 2 or 3 months away... Haiz... Tommorow there is training... Have to face coach and the team again.. Today M.I played against YJC whose coach is my team coach!! And they just lost to M.I... Didn't went to support as i was not feeling well physcially and mentally...

I decided to withdraw...
Will my decision make you a happier person?
If yes... I will...

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2005-03-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

Okay... Today lesson is one of the most boring one that i had... Just realised i got management test during my GP lesson... How sad can that be? The worst thing is i can't finish it on time... I have failed to do well for all the tests i had since the beginning of this year... Can soo feel that the title of Millenia No. 1 Slacker has gone to me... Always slacking around... Taking my own sweet time for lessons, sleeping in class, not handing up homework, forgotten there is a test, dun even know where the teacher teach until, going to school and back home as and when i like, avoiding school activites whenever i could... Die la... How worst a student can get? And tommorow i am going to school late again because i am not going to Serangoon stadium to sit there and look at my fellow class-mates run 2.4km... It will only remind me of my damned leg! Haiz.. Today lessons as usual lengthy and irritating but more boring than before... Especially during chinese... The weather is so hot and we are doing a chinese exercise for 2 periods and we can't communicate with one another... How boring can it get? Its hot and i am having a headache... After chinese lesson, as usual... Never go P.E.. ASk DAD send me home so i can enjoy the air-con back at home... Wanted to study but slept too long... Tml den start hoefully i can keep my words...

Today is a significant day which marks the great turning point in my life... 7 of March.. Certainly a memorable day... I will achieve what i had decided today... I certainly will...

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2005-03-06T21:49:00.001+08:00

This week... Ain't a very good week either... Wednesday went to take driving test... It was okie... Hopefully i can pass manz... If not i would be wasting money and time.. Haha... Den at night as usual when free went to play basketball.. Thur got training.. It was abit bad... Duno wad to said... Friday i got work... It was terrible too... Had to work till near 11... MY mood ain't that gd wheni am there... Morale is super low... I wonder why... Saturday i slept till 5+pm... Den went to work at Pasta mania... It was better... Slept at 2+am yestedayand got up at 5am today to go malaysia!!! It was not bad as a trip... With my parents friends... All together there were 7 cars... All chiong into Muar.. Went to pray and then go eat at a restaurant for a 9 course meal... Damn full manz... The weather is good too... Dun think i even sweat throughout the journey... Amazing right? Haha... Anyway the only problem with me today is i kept dozing off.. Slept till i reach the place... Dozed off while having lunch... Dozed off in the car on the way back till i reach home!!! It seems that i am in a coma or something... Forgotten i got GP homework!! Mrs Wee is going to kill me if i dun do after all we used her period on friday to fold cranes....

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2005-03-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

Hahaz... I am pissed off!! This guy dunno wads is gd for him... Thx alot for foiling my plan... U are smart i should say... Thx for all the problems too... Thx for being a ungrateful brat... I am too stupid to be compassionate at the wrong time... Hahaz... Very disappointed with what happened recently..... Shall not mentioned about it anymore.... These 2 weeks not very pleasant for me... I wonder why... It had been quite fine until recently.... Realised i haf been laggin behind in Accounts... And the econs teacher is rushing through labour market, assumming we are as intelligent as any top students from top JCs.. Now i gt extra work to do and that is studying by myself over again... Haiz... Managment is still not a problem yet... Hahahaz... Wondering what i have done with Mingxiu... Hahahaha.... This time confirm rocks one ah!! And thai is if i got time and work on it... Hahaz... Tml taking my driving test with kelvin... Suddenly gt no work tml... So bored... Shall study though everything is in my sch locker.. Hahaz... Though i am pissed off... I dunno why i keep laughing... I am mad.. Real mad... Oh ya... forgot to say... Yesterday play basketball until so xiong... until i sprained my knee again... Lucky i am used to it... Nothing happen... Just abit pain and not very flexible now only... Den today dunno hw i injured my index finger... Got problems serving pasta thx to my finger... Haiz... So much nonsensical problems come up recently... Life simply sucks :(

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2005-02-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Yesterday work from 10-5pm.... Gt a very bad headache... Den nid to rush to Mrs Heng' gathering dinner at 6.30pm... So rushing... everyday rush and rush... Can die... Haha... Anyway the dinner is not as fun as i expected... But i appreciate her kindness... Haha... On friday went to Sizhu house to celebrate her bdae... Haha... A long way inside but gt nice food.. So ok lo... Ah Pok can the rest come so late... Haiyo.... Den in the later night... Mingxiu come and tell ghost stories... Somemore ask Sizhu smashed all the lights when she can just off it... Think he is drunk but he nv drink leh.. So weird and funny... Den as he tell, Xinyi is getting more afraid... Den when my turn to tell, Cynthia just have to disturb me and the atmosphere.. Always at loggerheads with me.. Haha... It was quite fun though Nina and Renfeng have to leave early... If not it will be more fun.. Haha... Today was a damn boring day... Cope myself at home in this weather doing accounts... Want to play basketball but one by one dey studying... Haiyo... So boring can? So boring... Tml got sch again... Dun feel like going to sch manz... Want to slack at home but do i have a choice?

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2005-02-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

Haiz... These few days not as good as last few days i wonder why... Yesterday never go school... Went malaysia the night before... Have been slacking.... Alot of things happen recently... To think i am slowly going to sink into a financial crisis temporaily becoz of misfortunes... Haiz... Hopefully this year won't be as bad as last year... This week is a very very bad week... Have seen somme people's true colours and had found out something which i shouldn't know... After all... i realised everything was just an act... And i am rather pissed off by some people not one only... Haiz... Today and yesterday went to work... Tml shall relax abit... Shall clear all my doubts in accounts and finish up my maths homework by the end of this week...

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2005-02-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

Haiya... Tagboard spoil liao... I wonder how.... Can Jasmine pls help me? Haha... Internet connection got problem too... Can't go Msn... I am doomed manz... Life is going to be bored.. Haha... Anyway Days have been good recently... haha.... Last mon got TYEM... And it was sucessful i think... Mon is Valentine's Day... And i am working at nite... So there is nth special this yr... The rest of the days are like normal... Work study and play bball... Wed work oso... Long time nv work at Pasta Mania... And the manager is making noises... Supposed to work this sat... but i can't... Coz i gt a E-club seminar and i only know about it on wed... Gt great difficulties finding replacement last min... Thur gt bball training... Long time nv see coach... Haha... I am suddenly very enthusiastic in playing basketball... Fri play from 5pm to 10... Today i train with kenneth, another bball maniac from 9am to 5pm... Haha... Yesterday went to the E-club seminar.... Nth to do with entrepreneurship lehz... But gt something to do with doing CIP... And social entrepreneurship... The video-clips showing the poor Africans and Vietnamese under World Vision are rather touching manz... We are really fortunate... Can't imagine me being dem for a day... Haiz... Anyway the rest of the talk is rather boring... And 4 of us including the teacher left before the seminar ended.. Now busy downloading the stupid new msn... Becoz of this, i can't log in... And i have waited for hours... Wondering when can i change into cable or something faster... Wait till i have more money first... After all, money is not everything but without it, you can't do anything... Tml finally working at pasta mania... Hope dey will stop nagging at me... Think i haf earned rather little this mth from there coz i have been concentrating at marina south.. Shall earn more starting from now...

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2005-02-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

Haha... Last few days damn busy... Mon go apply for driving with kelvin... Theory test coming on 2nd of March.. The many road signs is giving me headaches... Tuesday i went back to coral sec with my friends... The school is so dead... Dun really know many people there now... Most of the teachers are gone... Haiz... The only thing fun is that i get to see most of my friends... Haha... Anyway dunno whether i will be going back again... Coz everything will never be the same again... Haiz... Reunion dinner is wonderful... 1st day of lunar new year went to 3 of my relative's house.. Haha... Abit boring... Just plain adult toking... I enjoyed myself on the 2nd day and 3rd day of the lunar new year... Ann kok, ignatius and stacy parents were all very good hosts... Get to eat drink and gamble.. Haha... Apparently... I din get to relax much... Haf to start work on the 2nd day of the new year at dragon village.. Followed by pasta mania... So damn boring... Just came back from pasta mania... Tml have to work at dragon village again... Everyday work and play till i forgot that i actually have a account test on Tuesday... And i have to work on monday nite again... I am so doomed...

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2005-02-05T01:10:00.000+08:00

For the past few days i haf been working and slacking... Haha... So got nothing to say... Nothing new which is bad happen recently... Just that i haf gone abit crazy... Dunno wad to say... hmm... today had a wonderful bdae celebration... Haha... First of all, i want to thxx my family members followed by my friends and my classmates for the presents and everything... Hmm.. had a very very bad year... So now i am 18... Hopefully this year will be good... I dun want to suffer anymore heavy losses... Its enough... Hopefully, fate won't torture me anymore ann i can make lots of money enough to flood my house... Anyway hope i can perform better academically this yr... These are all i wish for... Haha...

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2005-01-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

Life has shattered completely... I dun wish to falter too but i am beginning to feel it... I am the cause of the team's downfall.. Peharps... I should just stick to fate... And dun go against it... Fate has led me to a permanent knee injury... Why should i persever? I love bball alot... But its fated i can't be with it.. No matter wad.. I hope my team mates wun quit it.. If not i will feel worst..

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2005-01-27T01:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm... damn long nv post something... The usual days manz... Morning school, at night work... Hahaz... Tired but enriching... Hmm... Just came back from work... Colleague send us home in a lorry... Wow.. I so many years never sat on a lorry... So windy.. My hair nearly fly away.. Haha.. So angry today at work in Marina south... Lost to rival company who took away more den 30 customers... I just have to quarel wif the rivals frequently... Can't stand their boorish way of getting customers.. So uncivillised and rude... Haiz... Realised that Marina South is close to being a perfect competition market with 8 firms selling and doing the same thing, at the same time and at the same price... Haha... How to compete? By providing something unqiue or extra will only inccur higher cost which will be pass on to the consumers.. Under perfect competition, why will customers pay more for ur something extra when they can do without it and have it cheaper at other 7 buffet centre? Even we change the entire concept and provide something different from the rest, it won't work... Looks like 2 in 1 BBQ steamboat buffet is overwhelming popular.. Okok... Shall not brood over things which is should not brood over... Will drop more hair if i continue like this... Last fri, there is a company annual dinner at marina south... The food is soo nice... Haha... Mon went to Suntec wif friends for buffet at Kuali Restaurant.. Eat till i vomitted... Maybe i should just stop thinking of making full use of the $16 i pay for the buffet everytime... Have not eaten so much for dunnno how many years... School is as usual... Still cannot catch up in AO maths... Haiz... Maybe i should find one day and practise maths... The rest is still fine and i stiall haven do my chinese book review... I am soo doomed... Pass the dateline for a week liao...

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2005-01-20T13:53:00.001+08:00

Haiz... Morning Renfeng call me and ask where am i? HahAz.. I was half-awake... Told her that i am not going for FUN DAY... She asked me to get a MC.. But where got so much money... Get mc nid money one leh.. Den nv go pay $10 oreadi very gd lo... Home tutor ask me dun be anti-social.. But i am one now.. Work start at 5 at marina leh.. And this FUN day end at 6 somemore at SENTOSA... That time i already late for 1 hr + liao.. Late again later kana sacked how? hAIZ... Den after the call i slept till 11+... Mum start nagging... She dun allow me to go swimming sia... OH mine... so angry can? Haf planning this for like a few days before... Weather so gd... Now can't go swimming.. Instead she want me study at home.. Very gd right? My class having fun... I am working.. Now i can't even haf a few hours of fun alone!! Haiz... Den she went out herself... And i am home alone... Dunno wad time my sis come back.. Damn sian.. So decided to blog before my day end.. Listening to songs now... Haiz. My friend called and tot i was lying that i can't come out.. Haiz... How i wish i can go out too manz.. But i can't... Irritated... Damn irritated..

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2005-01-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I was thinking that i might feel better in the days to come but i was all wrong... When i go to sch on Tuesday, first few hours in sch i was still ok... Till my break time, all the things start flashing in my mind again... Became extremely quiet again... This is damn bad... I am afraid that this might haunt me for the rest of my time in M.I and i am not exagerrating.. Know myself too well.. Peharps wad my GP teacher say is right... I am going to be very miserable for the rest of my life in M.I.. But i really can't do anything unless i haf a change in environment for my studies which is like impossible... Haiz.. I now got two jobs... My lesson end at 5.15pm on that day... i rushed all the way to Marina South... Reached there at 6.30 when i supposed to start work at 5pm.. Work all the way till 10.30... Reach home at 12+.. Finally i realised that the sales has indeed dropped by 40%... It wasn't like this a few years back... So tired.. Den today go sch so sian sia... Got very angry during my break-time when i hear something that i shouldn't haf heard... Was moody till accounts when my anger was appeased.. Slept for the whole of HTP.. Hahaz.. Den principal urged us to turn up for tml FUN DAY... U think i haf mood for fun wif the class? I will only spoil the mood of my class-mates.. Haiz.. Den got a E-club meeting and it end at 3+... Rush my way back to change and bathe den went to Pasta mania to work... Hahaz.. Tml need to go marina south and work... =)

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2005-01-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today is a better day for me finally... Hmm... haf enough of sleep... Wake up feel so gd... Paid full attention to every lessons... Except for chinese... Dunno wads going on... But still ok la... Think maths gt slight problem only... Not catching up very well.. Tml i must give all my attention towards tt teacher... Today PE, gt problem wif my leg... I jump and when i landed, my bone from my knee towards my ass gave a loud crack... After that i can't move my thigh... I was like damn afraid.. Coz i need to work u noe... Haiz... Luckily my leg is fine... After school or should i say after PE, i rush to marina south to meet up wif my ex-boss and counsin... Finally we haf a job... the pay is cool... Den me and my counsin slack there and chit-chat wif the boss before go home... Reach home 10+.... Now still need to do the E-Club proposals... Somemore gt management test haven study... Die ah....

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2005-01-16T01:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. finally.... i get to sleep for more den 6 hrs... Hahaz... the feeling is good... Wake up at 9+... Den start slacking... till 12+ den i go to my counsin house for a swim before sauna... Hmm.... his house plasma tv is cool manz... after that i brought him to marina south to look for my ex-boss, hopefully to get a job for him since he has been slcaking for 5mths when he came back from holland... Hopefully i can get a place too since i work there before... Must play safe manz.. I sooo feel that my current manager is going to fire me.. So must get a back-up job... Even if she didn't, an extra job will mean extra money.. Shall get the best of both worlds.. Hahaz.. Hmm... My chinese teacher called me... Didn't know my personal matter would be known to the teachers.. She is just curious about the huge change of my behaviour... From a noisy and lively person to a quiet person who seems to be missing in class spirtually... Ain't the change gd? Den i wuon't disrupt the lessons... Dunno wad dey thinking... And she is worried that i can't cope with sch work after all i am working.. Haf told her i will be fine and i can cope.. Felt happy that there is another caring person in m.i after all... Nx thursday i haf to go for a class outing to sentosa and it is compulsory exxcept for the Muslims.. This is damn bad.. Told my home tutor that i dun wan can? She say cannot... Must pay $10 and its compulsory unless i give a mc.. Nvm... I shall just donate this $10 to the sch and get a mc on that day.. Take it as doing charity... I know i will be very upset and alone if i go for the outing.. Might as well waste some money.. Will be a happier person...

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2005-01-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

Today is another tiring day... Dun want to go for training one actually... so tired le... just want to sleep foreva... but apparently i must go... Duno why... for no proper reason, i became the captain again... Haf told them very clearly that it will be very temporaily coz i wun be that free in the near future... Training oso very slack... Heng ah... Shoot shoot only... After training... coach tok about his life to us till 12am... so tired... go sleep liao... Tml still nid to go tt sch again...

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2005-01-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Just come back from playing bball.... today like very slack sia... never even play properly... think i too tired le but i dunno why i dun want to go home and rest leh... i just dun understand why i haf to spend my night outside home everyday... realised that i either work till very late at nite or i hang out lang playing bball or doing other stuffs.. today in sch, i can't take it... too sleepy... feeling worried abt sch-work... haiz... yesterday work till 11+... was very sad yesterday night... manager give me last warning regarding my work performance... she tok to me for some time outside... one more mistake and i haf to go... some ppl ain't as gd as dey seem to be... realised that in these world, there are many 2-faced ppl... and i m just too naive and not ready to survive out there... Haiz... SHall buck up... can't lose my rice-bowl... Sch work is equally bad... yesterday was doing fine till maths... i shut down completely... was being distracted... now i really dunno anything... ppl must be thinking i noe alot... but seriously speaking, i noe nth of maths now... And i lost my talent of toking nonsense and crapping... Dunno how to tok suddenly... Dunno why i gt nothing to say... I am as gd as dead... Tml gt PE again.. And i am sick now due to lack of sleep and consuming wrong combination of drinks... Drinking coke and coffee together... Eating curry and drinking coffee together too.. Din realised it until i gt stomach-ache... Hahaz... i noe i am dumb... But seriously, i haf to clear my mind for my mind to work normally... =)

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2005-01-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Long time never write something... Too tired ah... Last few days went out with friends lo... To bugis, to play ball at the CC, to meetings and more... Recently gt very little rest... Too tired... Yesterday got up at 6.30am to play ball... Before that, i tok on the phone till 2... The last few days oso damn tired... Like gt endless things to do... But its better den nth to do... I am feeling better recently in sch... Hope it will heal completely soon... Think i am lagging behind in AO maths and accounts... Dangerous manz.. Haiz... today recieved the 1st blow of the year... I got the lowest in class for chinese exam... 39%.. This is bad.. Real bad.. Haiz... Den today got P.E again... NAFA mock test.. Its a test to mock ppl like me... So unfit... Dunno wads going on in my body... Joints not connected properly... Keep making noises... Bones not very strong too... Muscles very strained and keep aching... Keep injuring my fingers... Dunno wad happen to my body mass... Ppl bang me, i can fall down easily... Somemore i am not small k... Am i growing older or wad? Haf become so unfit just becoz of a serious knee injury tt prevent me from exercising for nearly a year... This is damn bad manz... Haiz.. Dunno wad thing gd i can say... Not a very positive beginning to start with... Hope everything will turn out to be reasonably good =)

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2005-01-07T01:35:00.000+08:00

These few days damn tired sia... Just realised that i am so tired after working at night... And can't stay awake on wed... Decided not to work so late le... Haiz... These few days can't concentrate lo... Dun even dare to open my mouth to say anything lo.. So unlike me... But no one will care one in my sch... I will haf to face it and overcome it myself... Accounts i like noe 30% only... Den econs all forgotten... Management i dunno wad nonsense is going on... The same go for maths... Haiz... If i go on like that, very soon i will do badly in studies one.. Coz i seldom revise one.. i rely mostly on class work... Now can't concentrate leh... Its my mind manz... My damn mind dun want to listen to me... Peharps it takes time... Hope it dun take too long... Dun want wad happen in sec. sch to happen again... I must make it to university!(Hope i can) Shall give myself a limit of 1 week to settle down and start afresh manz... Today oso damn tired.. Just realised i m unfit... Sch PE, i forgotten how to do star jump.. Hahaz.. Den gt so much push-ups and sit-ups... So tiring... Den at night oso got physical training during bball training... Do push-up and sit-ups again... Run & run again... Until muscles quite strained.. But i noe its gd for my health.. =)

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2005-01-03T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hmm... very common... as expected how i will feel when i in sch today... the feeling is sour, bitter, weird and piercing pain... Once i come out from my car, i feel like going back to my car and leave the school... Its became a phobia... Oh... M.I... Why i so scared of you??? Hahaz... The feeling is bad... Got to face school tommorow again... and again and again... Well... having GP and Chinese exams on the first day of school... Sleep during chinese... Was so tired... After school, rush to my outlet to change scheldules... Tml working after sch... Busy is the way to heal my wounds... Den go TP to do my accounts... Den play ball till late at nite... Before my left hand heal, i just have to injured my right hand forth finger... Very unfortunate... Well.. got to sleep... Will face a daylight nightmare tommorow again....

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2005-01-02T01:52:00.001+08:00

Hmm... Spend my new year working.... Din have enuff sleep manz... the few days ago have been returning home late if not toking on the phone till 4+... Can soo feel i am going to die of exhaust... After work, dad fetch me to the airport to meet his friend at 6... Den rush home to bathe and change coz meetin my friend at 6.45... Going RC dinner at 7 lo... Another unexpected sian event... Go to the place le nid to be car park attendant for a few mins... Den finally we gt a VIP seat at the hall... Den all the dishes come... Not bad la the food... The sian thing is the music la.. All retro wad chacha, rock and rol... Argh... Can sleep... Very noisy lo... But cant complain la... Haha.. Den dinner halfway, i went around wearing a tag and holding a container collection donation for the tsunamis victims lo... People very generous... I was happy with the response... Later i myself oso donate... Just before dinner ended.. I still nid to go for a secound round of donation manz.. The event last till 1am lo... Gt dance after dinner but all the retro music.. Sianz... Den me and my 3 other friends supervise the workers lo.. Ask dem clean up the place this and that... Have to wait for dem to finish sia... Wad a boring event... No tiger no techno... But never mind la.. Better den feeling sad at home alone... Shall go sleep now... Tml still got work again!! =)

New year Eve...

2005-01-01T03:20:00.000+08:00

New year eve is just another day this year... Nothing special... In fact it is sadder... Coz of the Tsunami disaster... Hopefully the situation there will be better manz... I was expecting to go out on new year eve.. But due to some miscommunications, there isn't any outings... So weird and strange... So i decided to stay at home and slack... At night went out wif parents till 11+ before i meet my friends at the beach at pasir ris park... Hahahaz... Like Chrsitmas eve, we were celebrating at the beach but this time the atmosphere ain't that gd coz of the tragedy... More den 10 of us came and dey decided to spray everyone wif the lame spray of theirs... Sad case, i din haf 1.... So i can only be sprayed... Found my long lost friend, Mr Tiger... But it ain't enuff for everyone to drink to their fill... Hahaz... Tok cock sing song play guitar till 2+am, my dad came to fetch me and my other 3 friends home... Later at 12pm still gt work... So i decide to go sleep now.. Hahaz...

Bad holidays all the way till the end....

2004-12-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Last few days of the year le though i could at least enjoy myself... But i just have to injured my left hand while playing basketball today... Have so much difficulties in functioning like a normal person after that... Have to eat, bathe, change, work and everything wif just using one hand... damn sickening... I am irrritated now... Hopefully everything will be fine... =)

Blogging is quite fun...

2004-12-29T01:53:00.000+08:00

Dun really have much time for a blog but i decide to keep one now despite having so much difficulties creating a blog... Till now, dun think my blog look gd enough... Haf seen others blogs... Wow... so nice... And mine is like so plain... How? BUt i think blogging is quite fun manz... Hahaz... Haf a bad trip for this holidays... One of the worst... Didn't know i haf to return to S'spore so fast... How i wish i can just remain there or some other places except for S'pore... Sch is starting sooo soon... And i dun wish to go back... Do i haf a choice? I know i never had a dream come true... =)

Wads a blog?

2004-12-21T01:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Dunno how a blog works... Dun think my friends around me use it too.. Hahahz.. But i decide to haf one to keep up with the times.. Hahahaz... A friend of mine think i shld haf one too... Any comments on how to make a beatutiful blog can tell me okie... Thx ah... =)

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